First Kiss

SQUEAL!!!!!!!!! I kissed my girlfriend for the first time today. It was really nice. It was not a deep lustful kiss, but a I have to leave now I will see you later. Just like to ones I give my husband when he gets home from work. It was really nice I can't wait to see her again and get another one. I have asked her to come out tomorrow and pick out the colors and scents she wants in her candle. I love making candles, and really want to make one for her. I get giddy every time I think about our kiss. I hope she felt the same way about it. Well, that is all of the note worth things to talk about. I will blog again later.

Ex-Boyfriends

I had a dream about including my ex-boyfriend Nathan in my marriage. Not that this would really happen mind you. Anyway, I was paying Nathan a lot more attention than my Husband. Hubby was getting jealous of the time I was spending with Nathan. I tried to put it off as me just wanting to catch up on all that was happening in his life. When we all sat down for dinner it was obvious that I was favoring Nathan over hubby since I made a point to sit next to Nathan. Hubby was sitting across the table and a couple of seats down. All he could do was sit there and frown at us. I asked hubby to come sit on the other side of me, but he was too upset. If I ever acted that way for real I would expect hubby to be upset. It was and interesting dream though.

My Girlfriend

It is interesting to have a girlfriend and to think of her that way. We have not gotten physical with each other yet, but I feel that we will be progressing to that stage soon. I am not in any hurry, but I want her to know I am open to that. She had a very horrible tragedy about a month ago. I hope to strengthen our relationship as she heals from this. I don't want to upset her with my own stuff. At the same time I want her to feel she can call and talk any time she needs. Sometimes a woman just needs another woman to talk to. I have had a similar situation, and have shared my feelings and problems that arose from that. In some small way I think it has not only helped me but her as well. I have grown to love her even more as we have gotten to know each other. We met in hopes of having a physical relationship. I think my husband would grow to desire her sexually the more he got to know her, but I am not sure he wants to. That is fine with me, but I will not cut myself off from her because of either one of them. However I will not put my marriage in jeopardy for her, or anyone else. Any way I have babbled enough.